读书?朋友?孤独?种种问题

在大学中好像还没找到一个很合得来的人呢
如果能快点遇到就好了
不管男女都好

其实我本身学习方面一直都不好
可能明明有潜质读好书的
却因为太懒惰
没有好好的读书

自己也明白自己的惰性
但就是改不了

其实还真想说为什么要读书呢

出去做工不是更快吗

以前会读书是因为身旁总有个人

以前数学不会可以问男朋友
因为觉得理所当然

现在怎么可能有愿意陪你读书的朋友呢
都变得不理所当然了

我其实根本找不到读书的方法
考试的话随便读
(也没有很随便,临时才来抱佛脚)

其实以前读书有个人陪着我会很努力读的
不过一个人读就会非常懒惰

好比现在来说
现在已经02.49am
我明天11.30am考试不过现在只读了一课
还有5课

请问我是该怎么继续读呢?

我真的有办法读完这4年吗 ?

想想毕业那年还得写300++页毕业论文,
现在想到都觉得快疯了

好羡慕人家有好多coursemate  可以一起上课一起读书
我却没有
Hmmmmm
好伤心的感觉呢

为什么一直都得这么孤单

从6年级开始没有什么朋友
上初中一开始有那么几个朋友
初中二时换班了交到几个好朋友
初中三唯独我又被调班了

结果初中三发生的事故
弄得全班都不和我说话
又变孤独了

幸好初中二的朋友还是有继续保持联络
直到现在
(정말 다행이에요. 친구야 , 너무 감사해요. 사랑해요 )

不过故事还没结束
到了初中四,分科系了 (science stream n art stream )
又分班了 (╥_╥)
(왜 ??)

不过我们班相处了两年,还好没有再换班了
所以直到现在我们感情也很好

很谢谢他们

然后 ！孤独的事情又要发生了

正当我想计划升学的时候,
班上大家都去tarc读书了,
他们也预留了我的房间 (租宿舍)

不过家里经济不好,到最后还是没有得去了

唉
就想说"那好吧, 就跟初中二的朋友一起去读中六好了"

结果孤独事件又来了 (我晕-.-")

我当选 政府大学先修班了 Matriculation

天啊
为什么要这样玩我

我几乎每一年都会发生这样的事 (헐!)

只好听天由命的去了hulu的perlis 读书 (虽然离我家没有很远)

结果是在那里认识是一大堆好朋友,
塞翁失马
焉知非福呢

好了,
结果大家就一起期待进大学的日子

成绩放榜
大学入读也放榜

结果大部分朋友都进了 马大 (Universiti Malaya )
唯独我进了博大 (Universiti Putra Malaysia)

严重 
暈 !

这到底是命运还是啥 ??

有点怀疑我慢热+不容易相信别人的性格是不是有被这影响到 ???

进到这里其实发现没有跟自己很合得来的朋友,
而且进来才发现

我的course mate只有1个

然后
结果我自己打算明年就转换科系

读工商管理 Bachelor of Business Administration

希望这决定是对的
然后可以带来更好的朋友緣吧

不说都不知道
原来自己有这么多孤独的事情发生在我的身上

这些是从初中二开始的朋友，特珍惜，很谢谢有他们在我身边。

这些呢就是初中四开始的好朋友，我也挺爱他们的呵呵

这些呢就是matriculation认识的朋友

我们感情也挺好的

有空的话会常常约出去玩或旅行

在这里真的很谢谢一路陪我走来的朋友们，

虽然我的朋友圈一直换一直换， 总是要很孤独的去重新认识朋友

虽然也认识了很多很多来自各种背景的朋友们

不过我还是要谢谢我的朋友们

没有他们我也不懂自己该怎么活过来的

他们这3班是我唯一可以展露自己缺点又不怕他们会跑掉的人

最多就被他们骂骂几句

呵呵

回家 #808

由于很少回家
所以就会格外珍惜

每次回家
都有很多事情很多故事要告诉爸妈
每次回家
都会一,两件事情会被骂
不过我挺享受的

打是疼,骂是爱
这句话可是非常适合用在我家
我可是被骂大的 哈哈

家里关系真的很好

有时我会告诉爸妈,
你们这个时候不骂我,还要等什么时候? [哈哈哈 变态]

有时候
被骂也是种幸福

我好爱我的家人
好爱爸爸妈妈,好想弟弟妹妹

现在很多家庭的关系都变淡了
爸爸妈妈哥哥姐姐弟弟妹妹大家都有部智能手机或平板电脑
大家都变成低头族了
甚至很多人在家里都不说话

我们家里经济状况没有很好
没能给每个家庭成员都买得起智能手机
所以家里除了我和妈妈有学业需要&工作需要之外
其他人都用着普通的烂手机

虽然埋怨过
不过反而因为这样
我们家庭关系更好
有什么都会说出来
小小的琐碎事说出来让大家笑笑
气人的事情说出来让大家一起骂
高兴的事情说出来让大家心情好
即将实现的事情
或是正在计划的事情
说出来
让大家一起满怀期待

好爱这样

虽然有时候我们也爱说无聊的空谈
不过这样日子过得也挺开心的 [哈哈]

Selfie

Yeahh I admit that I love to SELFIE *(taking photo of own self) so much. lol

But sometimes I worried that did I do it too much ? too often ? I'm worried that I'm too into it. Too obsess?
Is selfie good or bad?

Some of my friends tease me about my selfie. My selfie is not that bad, just it appeared a lot in my friends' facebook page. I'm kinda worry that will someone hate me because of this ? Because I take selfie everyday and post it on Facebook. lol

There's a time that I think myself was too obsessed about it. I saw my friend changed her profile picture and I was thinking, " I have to change mine too !!! I have to do it quickly and if possible my photo have to better than her."
LOL That is a very stupid and silly thinking right ? And I realized it after that. My friends told me that I have way too many of the selfie photo of myself.
And every time I took a selfie beside my friends, they will say " SEE, She is taking her selfie again". (with an annoying expression ) lol

Sometime I felt like ummm "Why you all treat me like this? I'm just trying to take my own selfie. I not taking your photo and I'm not bothering you anyway."
When they talk about it a lot and I feel embarrassed.

So I try to slow it down (my selfie). But I didn't stop doing it.
I found out that when these few months I try to not selfie too much and I found that there are not much photo of myself.

I know that this is not a something for everyone but for me, it freaks me out. Because I was the kind of having 100++ selfies in a day and suddenly when I slow it down, it turned out that I have only a few selfies in a WEEK.

Hmmmm I wonder if this is a good thing or a bad thing.
But I think part of the reason is now I'm studying in a public university in Malaysia which not allow students to wear anything such as dress, shorts, shirts with no sleeve, jeans.
The attire allowed to wear here is : t-shirt/ polo tee,trousers(no jeans), long long skirt, formal shirt and formal dress.
So my selfie all is wearing these normal attire and the selfies look....... normal.
Maybe this is part of the reason I don't selfie much this few months.

But I took a lot of my selfies if there are any event which I can wear different from my "normal attire" lol

Here is my selfie this few months, and its kinda less for me. [hahaha]

I love to take my selfie in front of a big mirror because I can take a whole-body photo [hahaha]
and of course to show my attire on that day

Some of the photo are not uploaded on Facebook, because i think that some photos are too pretty [hahahaha] . (too confident lol) (just ignore me )[ hahaha]

And this is the one I love the MOST  ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ 

          

Owen Yap

Wah met Owen Yap 叶剑峰real in person ehh
He gave such a good talk . He talk very fast and there's point in everything he said
Just wow !
I don't regret that I finished my 2 hours test earlier just to came here. I jump on the Serumpun bus and then straight heading here .
But actually I initially just came for the traditional costume photo session but I missed it [hahaha ]
Nvm la satisfied already hahaa

OMG did I just wrote too much ? It's gonna be like my blog dy ? ( initially this is my Facebook status but its too long so I'm gonna post it here hehe )

Haha Anyway I enjoyed the night tonight .

Although I just have 7 hours just now to read for my 2 hours test and it consists of 60 multiple choice questions and 2 essays which covers 4 chapters .
And I didn't finish my last chapter >.<  So sad
But yet I managed to completed my test and i know how to do it PLUS i came out earlier [hahaha]

And finally end of the day I can met Owen Yap and listen to his talk. His talk really make me wanna go to trip on myself. [ haha]

Just feeling so lucky today ! [ haha ]

瞬间移动 ??

I was having a meeting last night., from 11pm till 1am discussing about out college magazines which will soon published. Now is in the processing stage which everyone was busy.

When the meeting finished it's already 1 o'clock in the morning. I'm tooooooo starving at that time .

Was wondering should I eat only the mushroom soup or should I eat the instant noodles ???
Hmmmmmmm ........Mushroom soup is not enough but I'm too lazy to cook instant noodles and it was also no good eating it as the supper.

So I just have a cup of mushroom soup. After that I started to clean up my table as it was too messy. Found out that my roommate was not asleep yet and lying on her bed.

After I done all the things I switched off the lights and went to lock the door before I sleep.

Suddenly someone was knocking the door,  and please notice that it's already 2 something in the middle of the night.

And when I opened the door, I saw my ROOMMATE was standing in front of the door !!
That really scared me because I just saw she was on her bed just now and now she was OUTSIDE THE ROOM ????!!!!!!

OMG !

But after that I found out that she went out to the toilet just now and I didn't noticed that . LOL

How careless am I .... (→_→) (→_→) (→_→)

只想找对感觉♥

发现自己原来在emo 的时候只要找个信任和人说说话就会减轻

发现自己实在太难相信别人
太害怕被伤害

发现自己跟男生的感情比女生更来得真挚
是还没找到志同道合的女生朋友吗

发现自己连主动找别人聊天都有点胆怯
不过只要我认定我们是熟悉的朋友
我就不害怕
因为我知道你不会拒绝与我聊天

朋友这词
对我而言
是要经过一段日子才算是
更何况是姐妹
除非你真的是很了解我,跟我很合得来
我才会把你当姐妹

发现自己长越大好像越胆小了

发现自己在爱情里太容易被欺负
因为自己的性格→通常是妥协的一方

看似坚强其实内心非常脆弱

一直在
期待着真正懂我的人出现

很多人以为我高要求
只有自己知道我只想找对感觉

25 March A busy day

My timetable is full today !!!

I started my class from 8-5pm.
I only had a little bit time between 10-2 to finish my assignment which I have to submit it online and the due date is on the next day.  
And I went to the class again at 2pm.

I borrowed a camera from my Editor for taking photos in the evening of our college and the Tennis Inter College Competition .

I went back to college at 5pm to take photos and the weather was so hot and the haze appeared again.

Just thinking "Arrrhhh how can I take good photos with the haze appearance? ? The haze will make the colour of the photos look grey and not so bright "

And actually im not good in taking photos with the DSLR camera.
The first few photos were all white !! Ohhh myyyy ! What is going on ??

I thought I had adjusted the camera into the wrong mode.
And I met my friend Wei Siang on that moment so I request for his help but he said he is also not good in the camera.

Felt so helpless on the moment because I don't have much time today. So I started to adjust the camera mode to get a good photo. I'm hoping at least there are images on the camera.

At last I found a camera mode which shows a symbol S on it. But I don't know what the S means.

The mode gave good photo and very beautiful colours when taking the outdoor photos. I feel very happy when I finally can take photos especially the photos came out so beautiful.

And I kept taking photos surround the college. I even doesn't notice that I had already been taking almost 150 photos.

After I took all the photos
I went to my English discussion with my friends.

We started at 6.30 pm and ended it on 7  something.

And finally I rushed to my Management Exam at 8.30 pm.
Actually I don't have enough time to read all my notes and I just look through all notes.

Luckily those questions are all objective questions.

[Huuuuuuuuuuu]

Finally end up my whole day.

说话

发现自己最近好像越来越不会说话
是太久没有好好说话了吗

我太久没有真正宣泄自己情绪
倾诉给别人听
还是
不敢说话?
因为好像很少人会听我讲话
就算听了也好像一副不想搭理的感觉

这样不被理睬的感觉太可怕
所以我宁愿不说话

The day 12 march 2014

Thanks to my friend for fetching me back to college in the middle of night.

I just found out that it is almost 1am and my block will be lock if I go back after 1am.
Actually was waiting for my friend to came back together but just didn't thought that he will be that busy (>_<)

It's quite scary to walk alone back ><
My friend asked me to go back first and asked my another friend to come to fetch me .

Safely arrived my college and ended a tired day today.

Be as an usher for today's event and it's really tiring. I think I won't join any event to be an usher anymore.

Rehearsal start at 12pm
Start make up at 2pm(initially ) But the time extended until 4pm to start make up.

It's really hard to walk with heels. It's even tiring to stand still dont move and smile whole way WITH HEELS . [Carnival Pesta Ang Pau UPM 2014]

haizz
Gonna go to sleep now. Goodnight world ♥