Im this kind of girl

她会和每个异性朋友大声说笑，无所顾忌。 
Yes I always play with my friends.  Boys

但是，当他们向她表达爱意时，她却像刺猬一样，保护自己。
But if someday which one of them said he love me, I don't dare to believe.

她对爱情没有安全感，也给不了别人安全感。
I don't feel secured with the feeling of love. I scared that I found the wrong person .

她想对你负责，对她负责，对自己的过去和未来负责，但请你别轻易给她誓言和承诺，她很难相信，她习惯在人前表现的很坚强，一副大女子主义的模样。
I feel very hard to believe and I always showed a tough look when I'm in front of people and pretend that I am good enough to be alone.

她是完美主义，对感情，容不得一点瑕疵。她有时是迟钝的，在感情方面，她有时却很敏感，因为她在乎。
I am a very lazy girl but I get sensitive if it's about the Love thing. Because I care a lot and I really don't want to miss anything

她有点懒，猫科动物喜欢睡觉的，她不擅长做家务，她喜欢悠闲自由的生活。她不喜欢跟陌生朋友玩，更不喜欢不熟悉的人说爱她，有人会觉得这个女生有点冷，她太自我。
I don't really can mix with people I just met and don't really like it when someone who doesn't familiar with me say he love me. Most of the people maybe will feel that im a bit of cold hearted person.

一定要对方先流露出对她有好感，她才散发她的热情，她爱的永远是对她最好的。
I need someone to show me his his interest on me first and then I only can get close to him and be nice to him. The person I love is always the person who treat me nice (best).

那个好她心里是有一个标准的，你的积分超过了那条线，她会爱上你。
If someone be nice to me , I have a standard on that, if u treat me nicer than that, I'll really be fall in love with you.

但大多数没超过线之前就离开了。
Guy treat me nice but most of them can't pass the standard be nicer than that or maybe they give up before they treat me nicer and passed the standard.

她独立，也好强，她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿跟任何人人提前。
I'm independent , I am tough on myself and I rather be alone than get along with guy (lover) easily.

但其实骨子里，渴望有一个避风港湾，让她去依靠。
But actually I hope so much that I will be having someone to let me depend on. Really hope that.

但她不会承认，她必须确定那个人是否可以承受这一切。
承受她的撒娇、她的无理取闹、她的倔强、她的悲观，她所有的性格缺陷且永远不离不弃。只
But I won't admit in front of people that the right guy must have the ability to 'tahan' my everything.  All of my weakness and don't ever leave me.

有这样，她才放心，可以放心继续做自己，不会害怕有一天要面对失去。
With this , I will be relive and be myself and don't need to scare that I will lost my loved one someday.

其实她要的并不多，只是一个温暖的家而已。
Actually I don't really ask much but the only I ask for is a very tight and sweet relationship.

她分手之后完全不像别人，在人前要死要活，她嬉笑怒闹，变得更加开朗，在听到朋友说有关他的话题时间，她不会回避，会参与，然后淡然微笑，她的表现总遭人怀疑这段感情的深浅，没有人看得到她的眼泪。
I'll be tough when  my friends talking about I lost someone I loved but this will cause that they looked me as I'm not a person who serious in relationship.

她不会在恋人面前大声哭泣，但她会躲在被窝里独自哭泣到天亮，既便在你最爱她的时候她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤。
I don't cry in front of people.  I'll only cry when I'm alone.

她们不在乎，谁说什么都无所谓。这就是她们，坚持做着自己，如果你看到她的眼泪，这是她骄傲的心不得已的放纵。
I don't care much about it. And I don't care how people comment on my lifestyle.  This is me.

分开后你会发现她周围的异性多了起来，可你不知道曾经她为了表示对你的专注，疏远了那些朋友。
U saw me get along with many boys but u don't know that I got far away from them just because of the one I loved.

现在的她只是想找回原来的自己。但是她会需要很长时间才会开始新的恋情。她就是这样，死要面子，不认输不服软。
I just wanna find the real me and just be myself.

她从不轻言爱，她的爱很沉默，那并非是她缺少那份勇气.
在她心里有一个栅栏，那就是自尊，她看的比生命还重要的自尊.
如果这样的女生对你说她爱你，那就代表在她心里你的分量胜过了她的自尊。
I don't easily love someone but if I love you , I love u more than I love myself.

所以如果你不了解她、不懂她，请别爱她。。。
So if you do not know about the real me, Don't say u love me.

Kem Kepemimpinan Legasi 31 2014 Kolej Kedua Universiti Putra Malaysia

I went to a camp organised by my college in this February. Initially I was so unwilling to come to this camp because I have to come back my college on 9th on the Chinese New Year. I am still enjoying my Chinese New Year mood. And asking me to go to camp ? Nooooooooo.............


But, my friends and I already agreed on it to attend it together so finally we still came back for it.
All of us look like not so into it when we were in the first day, and we get scolded that how can us be so down just on the first day . Ummmmm

Actually the activities are okay but I feel so tired and so boring to play these activities.
We get to divide into different groups by the colour of a file we get as we have 6 of us are boys and another 2 of us are girls . So we have a total of 8 people here attending the camp together.

6 of the boys are in the 6 different groups. The groups are : Lava, Batu ( Stone), Salji (Snow), Kilat (Lightning), Hujan (Rain), and Ombak (Waves).

My friend Piu was in the Batu group and me were in the Salji group.

She was in the Batu group so her headband was brown colour and because I was in Salji so mine is white. 

But it really look like bandage so much LOL

We were ''forced'' to memorize our theme song '' Ke Akhir Garisan ''

For me its easy to memorize a song's lyric if I enjoy the song but I didnt get to enjoy the song yet but already have to memorize it already LOL. 

We had an Explorace in the second night.

We were asked to wear dark colour clothes and hand in all our handphones. So we can all guessed that we will have a water activity later. 

We started our Explorace in the midnight 12am. Its quite crazy as I never joined an activity which started at this hour although I usually sleep late.

We were all gave a bread and a bottle of mineral water for our ''journey''. LOL

The explorace was very tiring as the area covers almost 12 colleges and my university is really HUGE .

Our first clue was a logo in yellow colour which looks like a RADIOACTIVE logo but it wasn't.

We try our luck in the PKU (Pusat Kesihatan Universiti). And we ask the staff there, and they told us the place was at another side. 

We actually found the right place !!

The logo is a CLINICAL WASTE logo. And the clue was found by me !! So excited [hahahaha]

And the clue we got is a name of a SULTAN.

My teammates said the name is the Sultan of Selangor, so I suggested that we go to Kolej Canselor as I heard that the Sultan of Selangor is our UPM's Canselor.

So we went to try our luck there , we met our Fasilitator - Kak Bashirah, Abang Waqar, and Kak Farhana.

They ask us to tell their full name. OH GOSHH

How can I remember their full name ?? I only know their name that we should call them. Hmmm Lucky that my teammates know the answer.

Next we were asked to sing our theme song.. AGAIN with not looking at the lyrics

We sing again and again to satisfied the Fasilitator

and we were required to sing louder and louder. LOL this is really crazy . Sing a song in this loud voice in the midnight.

We tried so hard to passed the test and finally we know that we were tricked by them. They were not the fasilitator which we should find. LOLLLLLL

We get the clue from them to the correct fasilitator. We have to pose and catwalk in front of them

This is my favourite !! [hahahahaha]

And then the fasilitators said they want to treat us eat. The first food we have to eat is Maggi noodles in coffee soup. It taste like... no taste. 

And the next food is Vegetable soup. OH GOSHH 

U cant imagine how disgusting it taste like. Yucckkkss

The fasilitators said we were quite success because other group throw up because of eating this.

although it is disgusting , but it is quite fun [hahaha].

The next clue we get is at the Tennis Court. We find almost 1 hour and half there only searching for clues. Before that we have to hook 3 nails on the string and find the nails with eyes closed and listening to our friend guide.

The clue was at a place that we never thought before . Its in a small food box.

Everyone were exhausted because of finding that clue . And the clue we get were 3 math equation which required we to solve it. We only solved the 3rd one and get an answer of 12.

And we straight went to kolej serumpun because it is the only place which have a number of 12.

We found the clue at beside the CIMB ATM. We just simply find and the clue we get is to go to KOSASS .Do u know how far is it by just walking ???Because we just came from the tennis court to serumpun and now have to go back to KOSASS.

LOL

But we met our fasilitator on the half way and the clue he gave is to go back to our own college and find another group to be combined together.

The task we get is to calculate the number of stairs in the college . Can u imagined that we have 5 Block and so many ladders in the college?

We finished the task with the answer of 829 step of stairs. I won't forget this forever. LOL

Its a really exhausted night as the clue we get is to go Bukit Ekspo. Its some where near Kolej Serumpun.

And we have to go back AGAINNNN

This Explorace was really long as we start our race on 12 midnight and we finish at 6.30 in the morning.

The last place we went to the Bukit Ekspo is get our eyes covered and hold hands together. 

And then get into the LAKE with EYES COVERED and only can hold along a rope.

LOLLL

This is the longest game I had ever played. 

We have 1 hour to prepare ourselves and packing our luggage to go to another venue. 

It is Nur Lembah Lenggong in Lenggong , Perak.

We started on 8am and it required 6 hours to reach there. Its soooooooo far from here.

After that, we set our tent ourselves. And then we played a snipper ganme and the only thing we got is four wich can be add in some sand.

Its so hard to throw at another group accurately.

And my group lose at the first round, it is quite of make us down actually. 

But after that we still a few matches to play.

And as usually, its time for me to take photos [hahaha]

Here is Jun Sheng in the group Ombak and ChingThiam in the group Lava.

Piu was in the Batu group.

And I'm gonna stop at here. [Haha] gonna continue it in the next few posts.  (It's too long lol )